Valentines

So, y'all remember when I said my best friend was separated from her boyfriend? Yeah, So they officially broke up. On Valentines Day, no less. So she had an absolutely horrible V-day, which made me feel kinda guilty for having such an awesome one.

My amazing boyfriend bought me a betta for V-day. He's such a dork, but I love him so much. Anyway, so he got the little dude (Who I named Checkers(because I have a cat named Chess, so they're Chess and Checkers)) all set up, n then we went to go see a movie (Just Go With It which was great, btw) and then we went back to my house n hung out for a while, ate dinner with my family, n then I stayed the night at his house. It was awesome! ^-^

Anyway. Things are gonna be weird in the group now... Our two main members are split up, and its gona make everything awkward. I know things wont go back to normal any time soon (Or maybe ever) but I guess we'll figure things out as we go along.

Another thing? A year ago I never would've believed anyone that said I would be in a relationship while Steph and Jazzy were single. Never ever woulda believed em.  Now that it's true, though, I dont know if I even want to believe it...

Relationships

My best friend just separated from her boyfriend of over three years. They're still technically boyfriend and girlfriend, but they're taking a break from each other for a while (Two weeks I think she said). I really dont know how they're gonna get through this. Especially since they work together in a tiny little office. They've been together for over three freaking years. I don't think they even KNOW how to live without each other.

I was in class when it actually happened, but my other best friend was there for her, which I'm really glad for. I'm sitting at her house right now, watching the first best friend watch Jersey Shore to cheer herself up (And thats a great show to do it too. It's the kind of show that makes you feel so glad that you're NOT them!) I'm really glad she's laughing and having a good time right now, and I really hope she figures something out soon.


Thinking about them and how many issues they've had within their relationship, It makes me SO glad that I get along so well with my own boyfriend. I've been going out with him for almost three months (and yeah, I KNOW thats almost NOTHING compared to so much) and I've had absolutely NO fights with him (well, I mean we have little arguments about nothing, but thats mostly flirting) In that same period of time, these two have had multiple huge blow-outs where he's told me he's thinking of breaking up with her, and she's seriously afraid that he's gonna get rid of her. I feel SO blessed to have my boy, and I love him SO much, and I love the fact that he loves me too. I feel so happy, but I also feel really bad for my friend because she isn't having nearly as good a life as I am right now...

I love her so much, and I really hope they make it through this, even though I'm thinking they probably wont... I think they've pushed this thing to about as far as it'll go. Unfortunately, I think the only reason they WONT actually break up with each other is the fact that they're both afraid of trying to get through life alone. And that's REALLY not a good reason to stay in a relationship

I hope they figure things out. One way or the other.

Editing

I really wish I knew how to edit my posts once I actually post them. -_-#

I forgot to give my last entry a title, so it shows up in the sidebar as the first sentence dotdotdot. It's annoying the living bajeesus outta me, especially since theres a typo in it.

Sigh. I'll prolly figure it out one day

EDIT: I totally figured it out right after I posted this. Thank you, God, for listening to my idiotic ramblings!

Job Hunt

Looking for a job sucks right now. I dont know why, and I dont really care, either. I just know that its affecting me and the ones I love. I really dont like the fact that I NEED a job, but I know I do. Maybe it's just because I'm lazy, I dont know...

I liked the last job I had (which was also the first one I had...) I got to work for the freaking Census Bureau (and you have no idea how much I have to think every time I try to spell that word. Bureau. It gives me issues.) Anyway, It was freaking awesome! I got paid fifteen dollars and hour, and I got fifty cents for every mile I had to drive! It was awesome, especially when I had to drive like fifty miles in a day.

Now I'm reminiscing n i just miss my job even more, and I'm not looking forward to a new one. I dont want to work fast food, and I dont really want to work retail, either...

I guess I'm just complaining now...

o well.

At least I'm alive

Copy Cat

So I just got a blogspot. I also just got a xanga account. I posted on that one first, and I like that original post, so I'm just gonna copy n paste it here (Thus the title :P)

"Hi everyone! I'm just getting started on Xanga... Drop me a comment if you've got some ideas on what to do first - or just to say, "Hi!" "

Thats what the thing said anyway. I didnt know whether I wanted to keep it or not, so I just figured I'd add onto it. Truthfully, I dont care whether you comment or message or whatever me. Mostly this is just gonna be a place for me to express myself n whatever. It's gonna let me be [mostly] anonymous, which will give me the freedom to actually WANT to speak my mind without worrying about what other people will think. I think I worry too much about what people think. Or what I thik people will think. Even though it doesnt even matter because I'll probably never see them again anyway. Strangers. Not my friends. my friends will actually do the crazy stuff and say insane things with me. But . . . This is a place to be anonymous from them too. It's a place to be able to speak about how my thoughts differ from theirs, and for me to say whether I think they're wrong or not. I can say whatever the fuck I want here because this is for me. Its not for anyone else, and it shouldnt be. This is for me and only me. and if people have a problem with that then they can stop reading and just forget they ever found this page. I would be fine with that.

Sorry I said 'fuck' . . .

twice... kinda.