So, My boyfriend is probably going to be moving to Oregon. In like two months.
Nothing ios officially set in stone yet, but he's liking the idea more and more the more he talks to his friend Ethan about it. His friend is the whole reason for this. Ethan's moving up there to live with his uncle for some reason, and he invited my boy to go with him. and Mark, being Mark, and having issues with school, and hating his job, and wanting to get out of california allltogether, is really leaning towards moving with him.
We've been talking about it, and I know he would love for me to go with him, but I dont know what I'm gonna do. I just got a job here, and all my other friends are here, and everything I know and love is here. except HE wont be. I love this boy more than anything, i can see myself spending the rest of my life with him, and I dont know what the fuck I'm gonna do if he moves.
It seems like my only options right now are to lose him, or lose everything else...
We kinda talked about that too. He doesnt want to pressure me into doing anything i dont want to, but I'm tempted to take up his offer. Not immediately, but eventually. He said I could move up there in a year and it would be fine. Okay, I think I could do that. it gives me a year to save up money, and start packing and whatever. But I'm worried about the meantime. I already only get to see this boy maybe once or twice a week, what'll it be like if he lives in FUCKING OREGON?! I know he said we could still see eachother like once a week, he could drive down, or I could take the train, but is that really gonna work? he barely drives up when he lives 40 minutes away. is he really gonna want to make the drive when its five fucking hours?
I cried last night. For the first time in i dont even know how long. I actually cried. it hurt like hell, and I dont feel any better afterward.
I'm scared. I dont know what I'm gonna do. I really dont.
