Work, work, work.

Working at 5 am kinda sucks, but I get paid a little extra, because its earlier than normal hours, so thats a good thing. I actually kinda like my job. but i'm stil probationary, and I've come in late twice, and i've called in sick twice, and I've had a no-call no-show once (i didnt know i was working TT^TT) and so I'm at a risk of losing my job. I really REALLY hope that doesnt happen, cus i need the money....

so yeah.

just felt like letting you know...

Can I have a re-do?

I feel like such a bitch right now.
Last night I went to a party with a shit ton of my friends, and everyone got drunk and was having a great time, and then people started making out with each other, and everyone else, and whatnot, and so, being drunk, and in the heat of the moment, i gave a couple of my guy friends a peck on the lips. Then I told Mark. I immediately felt HELLA FUCKING HORRIBLE about kissing either of them. I apologized so much, and I started crying a few times because of it.
Mark said he forgives me and that he still loves me with al his heart, and just not to do it again, but I still feel horrible. He says he's not mad, and everyone kept telling me that he forgave me and that I shouldnt worry about it anymore, but i still feel so fucking bad about it.
I wish i could take it back and never do it ever.

Shit. Flynn was reading over my shoulder as I typed this and I dont know how much he read or how much he'll tell mom.

FUCK! I just want to rewind and start over!